I have found myself many times in life seeking love in all the wrong places. I longed for fulfillment that only comes from Jesus, but couldn’t quite get it through my thick skull that the kind of love I was so hungry for only came from Him. In the process, I have been very much like the woman at the well in John chapter 4. I was married at eighteen years old and it failed before we were married 2 years. And to add more injury to myself, I was ingaged three more times afterwards, none ending in marriage. I was searching so desperately for love.
I couldn’t love myself. I quickly felt I was unloveable, and damaged goods. It took the love of Jesus to start rewriting the thinking that was so ingrained into myself. See Jesus already knew every thing about each one of those failed relationships. He watched every fight, argument, every attempt from me to gain love, and to hold love that wasn’t mine to hold. I really saw love as this sea and I had a fishing pole and if I used the right words, cloths, hair style, make-up, you name it I could get the greatest catch of all, all on my own. But I kept coming up short. I never asked Papa God who he wanted for me. I just assumed because the guy was attracted to me that I had done a good job in catching me a ‘good man” and it had to be Gods plan right?
Think again. I never held up the mirror of what the Bible says a husband should be for me to the guys I was dating. Resulting in a lot of heart-ache. I just longed to be loved. I wanted to hear over an over that someone loved me. I wanted to be held, and to feel secure. I wanted to be the princess in the tower that the white knight came to rescue and they lived happily ever after. I was very lost.
It wasn’t until I sat down with Jesus and I heard Him saying how much he loved me, that He would hold me , and I was secure in Him, that I even started to love myself and accept single me. I have become almost comfortable in my singleness, because Jesus and Papa God are holding me. Yes I still want to be married to the man Papa God has planned for me, but I am patiently waiting on Papa God to introduce me to him, instead of continuously kissing frogs. My hunger for love is filled only in Jesus my Savior, and Messiah.
“1The Pharisees heard that Jesus was gaining and baptizing more disciples than John, 2although in fact it was not Jesus who baptized, but his disciples. 3When the Lord learned of this, he left Judea and went back once more to Galilee. 4Now he had to go through Samaria. 5So he came to a town in Samaria called Sychar, near the plot of ground Jacob had given to his son Joseph. 6Jacob’s well was there, and Jesus, tired as he was from the journey, sat down by the well. It was about the sixth hour.
7When a Samaritan woman came to draw water, Jesus said to her, “Will you give me a drink?” 8(His disciples had gone into the town to buy food.)
9The Samaritan woman said to him, “You are a Jew and I am a Samaritan woman. How can you ask me for a drink?” (For Jews do not associate with Samaritans.a)
10Jesus answered her, “If you knew the gift of God and who it is that asks you for a drink, you would have asked him and he would have given you living water.”
11“Sir,” the woman said, “you have nothing to draw with and the well is deep. Where can you get this living water? 12Are you greater than our father Jacob, who gave us the well and drank from it himself, as did also his sons and his flocks and herds?”
13Jesus answered, “Everyone who drinks this water will be thirsty again, 14but whoever drinks the water I give him will never thirst. Indeed, the water I give him will become in him a spring of water welling up to eternal life.”
15The woman said to him, “Sir, give me this water so that I won’t get thirsty and have to keep coming here to draw water.”
16He told her, “Go, call your husband and come back.”
17“I have no husband,” she replied.
Jesus said to her, “You are right when you say you have no husband. 18The fact is, you have had five husbands, and the man you now have is not your husband. What you have just said is quite true.”
19“Sir,” the woman said, “I can see that you are a prophet. 20Our fathers worshiped on this mountain, but you Jews claim that the place where we must worship is in Jerusalem.”
21Jesus declared, “Believe me, woman, a time is coming when you will worship the Father neither on this mountain nor in Jerusalem. 22You Samaritans worship what you do not know; we worship what we do know, for salvation is from the Jews. 23Yet a time is coming and has now come when the true worshipers will worship the Father in spirit and truth, for they are the kind of worshipers the Father seeks. 24God is spirit, and his worshipers must worship in spirit and in truth.”
25The woman said, “I know that Messiah” (called Christ) “is coming. When he comes, he will explain everything to us.”
26Then Jesus declared, “I who speak to you am he.”
John 4:1-26
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